August 2010
Be patient with me..
..I’m going to get stronger. I will.
July 2010
Rewatched The Notebook. Damn.
Random Pet Peeve #87
That puddle of condensation forming beneath your cold drink making something else unnecessarily wet..
With my distractions quickly becoming less and...
Distract me. Pull my attention away. Make me smile...
“Oh well I don’t mind, if you don’t mind
Cause I don’t shine...”
– The Killers
My Memory's A Cruel Thing
I always forget the things I’m suppose to remember.. And I always remember the things I desperately wish to forget..
Impossibly soft. Indescribably sweet. Blissfully...
All My Dreams Are Nothing Short Of Nightmares.
And oddly the sweetest dreams always end up being the worst kinds of nightmares. Realization of reality.
Does anyone keep a diary?
I just started writing in mine and I’m finding that it’s oddly therapeutic. I wonder if I’ll find it somewhere down the line 10 years later or so..that would be interesting. To read what I was thinking “back then” yknow? Anyways yeah, does anyone still keep one? Experiences? Advice? Just curious.
Fruit Pizza/Pie
So we celebrated my little brother, Lenny’s, birthday today with out family. Same old good food, meat, and deep friend junk for the kids. And around 9 o clock me and my cousin Daisy get this sudden urge to just make something. She remembers this really easy recipe her friend’s madre made for her once so we went shopping and took a whack at it. We’re still noobs, but I think...
I have sudden the urge to cover The Verve's...
Made In Twos, Built In Pairs
Over the last month or two those closer to me will understand I’ve done a helluva lot of soul searching. Answers, resolves, understanding, anything. I needed something. And those of you who actually read my rants (Thanks haha) will know I’ve come to quite a few conclusions, observations and just general realizations in this time. Will here’s another. I’ve been reading this...
Someplace To Call Home
I’ve always gotten the feeling that most people if not all people have this deep desire. It can be masked and justified or excused with masks of all sorts, but in the end that same desire’s always there, tethered at the root of it all. Some place to fit in. Some place to call “home”. And I don’t mean your apartment, or dorm room or house..no, some place where you know...
“And there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears.
And love will not...”
– Mumford & Sons (via quote-book)
Attached.
Man I hate how I get so attached to things. Today I changed my wallet cos my old one is ripped and tattered and just falling apart on me. But it just isn’t the same yknow?
All my cards and “jimmy” cards just don’t fit right and bah I don’t know. I wonder if I’ll ever get used to it. Lame.
Repetetive Goodness
I know I’ve said this on tumblr a million times but never take anything for granted. Never.Take.Anything.For.Granted. Cherish all moments, big or small. Even when you ask for gas money and your folks hand you nothing but a 5, catch yourself as you prepare yourself to sigh or protest aloud…Cherish it. Tell them thank you with a big smile.
Diary
I picked up this book from the library, and around the 9th page there was this quote that’s inspired me to start a Diary. Kinda lame to start one after you’re already in your 20’s but oh well.
“Mom says it doesn’t matter what I write and if I wait to write just the important things then I’ll probably never write anything, because important things look like...
“Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding...”
– Vindicated
A Little Lot Of Crazy
My dad’s always told me I’m “meechusuh” for as long as I can remember. My quirky habits and unusual habits always plagued me in this way. I’ve been called crazy for as long as my memory serves and I’ve never really denied it. But I’ve always hated it. I don’t think I care anymore. My entire life I would strive to be accepted, to slip into the norm...
Random Thought:
I’ve always wondered what happens to people who remarry (after death of a spouse) when they go to heaven. Assuming all three (or more?) go to heaven do the bonds in this life becoming something insignificant? Does polygamy become possible for those who once thought it out of the question?
The Old Things
I’ve always had an affinity for old things. My eyes would always follow passing flea markets and antique shops through my car window as a kid with longing and I never quite knew why. The vintage “look” is good and all but actually possessing something genuinely antique holds an attraction for me that I could never quite explain. I’ve always been a sentimental possessor,...
“Humans have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for them.”
– Albus Dumbledore (via quote-book)
"Experience" Is Just Another Euphamism
I’ve been scouring the internet a lot today, just cos yknow my brother’s out and I miss the internet. And yknow what I’m finding? A crap load of hate. I know I complain and protest against plenty of crap but seriously, some people(no, most people) can get just downright selfish and hateful and it kind of hurts to think about it… Maybe my opinion’s a little biased just...
Growing Up With A Soundtrack
Me and my family used to go on these random late night drives,yknow? We don’t do it anymore but I still remember those drives and the haze of memories accompanying our old Dodge Caravan. I remember how I used to get excited every time my dad called us out to go “driving”, not because it meant a solid hour of quality time next to my parents, but because it meant we got to pick out...
Does anyone else..
..kinda hate it when something happens, and the events or the feelings that took place fall straight into the lines of a cliche quote? I’ve been getting those a lot. It’s interesting and sort of irritating at the same time.
Words That Hold Hopes and Dreams, Better Promises...
I’ve been reading a lot. At first it was just for distraction yknow? From this world, from my problems, from everything weighing me down.. I think I still read for that, even if the stories I tend to enjoy usually have direct relations to the very problems I’m attempting to escape. But today as I finished my 3rd book this week I came to realize something. I love happy endings, I...
“As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart! You don’t know how lucky you...”
– The Wizard to TinMan, Wizard of Oz (via quote-book)
Scars. I feel deep deep scars..
25
Okok I know I’m lazy. I’m posting this on Tumblr because I’m too lazy to tag 25 people but bored enough to want to fill this out. Feel free to reblog and refill though~And you don’t have to be as wordy as me…I just wanted to write something.
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about...
Observations Of The Heart
This is a very rant-y essay(?) I just felt like doing. I recommend you stop reading here unless you would like to hear what I have to babble on about.I’m too lazy to even revise and edit it properly. haha.
Hope everyone’s enjoying their summer.
As a person who has always had very little to offer this world and its people, I’ve come to certain understandings with matters of the heart....
Mysterious Ways
I’ve gone through hard times before. Granted, not as difficult as now but hard nevertheless. It’s funny, how each time something big(and negative) happens in my life, I always think that during that time, it was the hardest I’ve ever endured.
Now I’m left broken once more and I’m struggling to piece my life back together as best I can. Never has anything seemed...
Classics Are Classics For A Reason
Pure Imagination.
So awesome.
Curious Cravings
You ever get the craving for something just plain weird? I know a few people who have shared a few of my cravings such as cold pizza, leftover Thanksgiving turkey, and the occasional spoon of chunky peanut butter. But mine sometimes go farther…
Sometimes I craved that “processed” taste. A twinky, or a regular cheeseburger from McDonald’s. Sometimes I actually crave the...
Impossibilities are only impossibilities when you...
Random late night drives in a car I shouldn't be...
Today I...
…got over one of my fears of being embarrassed in public. Long have I been a nerdy fan of Star Wars, but I’ve always been afraid to check out Star Wars fiction. Today I went to the Library and checked out a Star Wars novel.
Even if life’s pretty crappy…count you blessings? I don’t know..
I’m a nerd, and I’m done caring who minds.
“…because...
Dreams and Sleelessness
So lately I’ve been dreaming like nonstop. It’s like I have so much pent up junk in my head that the only time it has the chance to escape is after I’ve fallen asleep. Unfortunately, these dreams make me wake up much earlier than I’d like…worse yet this pattern repeats every single time I try and go back to sleep. So basically my sleeping pattern has become short 1-2...
Does anyone know how to not dream?
Cause I’m getting tired of waking up from fairy tales..
Booming explosions and flashing lights; they're...
I Might Be Going A Little Crazy..
..but maybe it’s not such a bad thing.
I was having a heart to heart with a friend. And it kinda came to me. Not saying I’m headed for a straight jacket anytime soon or anything. I’ve always known I’m not exactly the most normal person there is. I mean..define “normal” anyways, right? I’ve long since come to terms that my mind works kinda weird. But...
hidyhidahides:
Yellow (cover); Jem
I adore...
For me, sweet dreams are the worst..
